Yesterday I set an intention to be aware of the ebb and flow of emotions.

After yesterday I want to say, “Just kidding!”

Yesterday began with a lot of joy and love–like I was sailing on a rainbow. And then she texted. Not a phone call–a text: “Call me at your convenience. Love, Mom.” Who uses the word convenience in a text? Out went the tide. Just like that my rainbow sailboat turned into driftwood in a stormy sea rocking out with the tide.

I know. Just feel. And know that I can’t yet know. Just feel.

Love you…and a little mad at you too…at god…and everything unfair.

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